Timmy Tracks

       After two different conversations and the nice weather rush, I have realized I may be at one with my shop.  As my beautiful friend Andrea said, “You are Momentum. What is Momentum without you, nothing, you are Momentum”. I love that woman. (Oh wait that should be Woman with a capital ‘W’)  I wear this place like a glove, it is me.

 I am now seeing that it may be rough on future relationships or any relationship.   Momentum may have even been a small factor in the death of my marriage.  I may have to schedule in a bike tune up just to spend a moment with someone. Wine, cheese, soft music and ‘can you hand me that wrench, thanks’. Is this a date??

      I have been told I am a workaholic, am I? Or am I just trying to do the best I can with what I have??  This is a one man operation.  I have been blessed with some great employees. In fact I am not sure that I can refer to them as employees. They are more like family after we have spent time together in the shop. Last night I commented that Kyle was like the son or brother I never had. Lets make him the younger brother I never had, makes me sound not so old.  Anyway, without my employees, I would be severely over my head. My shop family has saved my butt so many times. I am very thankful for those I have in the shop. In fact I probably feel like a parent as they graduate and go off and go get a job. Leaving me all alone. Sniff sniff.  

            Even with my Momentum Family, I still have to put so much of me into this place. I have worked over the years to make it so I could sneak away at times to catch my breath. Still, I feel the place could do so much more if I had more time. Time, which I am trying to find. And I still feel terribly guilty for time spent in the shop, and not with my kids. But if I just did this or that to improve the shop, hey! maybe the shop would be better off. In the mean time I am stealing time from loved ones.

            I love what I do. Getting people on bikes & changing their lives. Or hiring them and changing there life through their time spent here at Momentum.

            My point I was trying to make is that I am not sure I will be able to live life or live in any relationship without Momentum being a part of it. Who ever is my partner will be part of Momentum. Life will revolve around Momentum, is that bad?  Or as I mentioned to someone I feel quite close to, will it help sift out the chaff. If someone can’t handle me in the shop and Momentum, will there ever be anything there for that person and me?

            I really need to go for a bike ride.